Today on my Facebook feed, someone had posted a quote:
“Who are you gonna drive to at 2 o’clock in the morning when you realize your true happiness isn’t right next to you”
I’m not sure who the author is, I was not able to find one.
Anyways, this is a nice sentiment and all, but I have to disagree. What are you usually doing up at 2 in the morning? Often, as you lay there, you are lonely. I’m not sure if this quote implies that you are alone, or that your current relationship has failed; either way, that person is feeling lonely. So if you are lonely, you want company. That can come in the form of a friend, an ex you left for good reason, someone you can’t have, whatever. At that point you aren’t making the most rational decisions. For myself, I can’t truly say who I would drive to. No one comes to mind, but I think I would be seeking comfort of whoever’s company I can get.
What I feel like that true love would be, is the person you are searching for at 2PM. You know, you’re driving after eating lunch to go run some errands. Who’s the person you wish was in the passenger seat with you so you can blast all your favorite songs? That person that will make running to the bank and grocery shopping bearable, or even fun. That’s who I want. Who I’m thinking of at 2 in the afternoon, when everything is fine, but having that person sitting next to you even better.
Just last week, I found myself wishing for this person. I went to an event, Zombie Prom, and it was a lot of fun. I am an introvert at heart though, so it took a while for me to really get into it. I spent more time than I would have liked looking at my phone and eating food to avoid interacting with people. I had even brought someone with me, but we are similar, so we just amplified each other’s social anxiety and made it worse for the both of us. A person came to mind during the night. Someone I know that I would have had a lot of fun with, and would have gently pushed me a little to go and dance and talk to strangers.
That person, though, is in a relationship and has been for over a year. It could have been great, but I ruined my chances. So while that still hurts a lot, at least now I know what I am looking for, and what I am not